perfect: adjective ˈpərfikt/ 1. having all the required or desirable elements, qualities, or characteristics; as good as it is possible to be.
You know, when I started this journey almost 5 years ago I thought I would lose the weight and things would simply be better. I would finally be able to wear bikini's, midriff shirts and somehow losing weight would solve all my confidence issues. At first I believed losing weight would be a cure all, somehow in achieving the perfect body I would finally be happy. Man was I wrong, nothing is instantaneous and I have learned that everything is a process.
With that being said I may not have the perfect body, but what is perfect anyway? Society has engrained it into our brains that perfect means thin, no stretch marks, not a hair out of place. Yet this shouldn't be how it is, perfect shouldn't be some standard that we have to meet. Hell, the definition of the word perfect is pretty vague, sure it says that to be perfect we have all the desirable traits needed to be as good as it is possible to be but these "traits" we are supposed to have based on societies views are bullshit. For a long time I fed into society's views and even sometimes still find myself falling for their tricks. Comparing myself to this person or that. Even though I still end up comparing myself I will say that I am finally happy and that it is okay in my opinion to be perfectly imperfect.
So now I am finally ready to share something I am deeply self conscious about with all of you because I know there are so many people out there who can relate to me. For so long I have hidden my body after weight loss because I was embarrassed of it. Only posting pictures where my extra skin is nice and concealed. Which seems crazy right, you would think after losing 130+ pounds that I would be so eager to get into a bikini correct? WRONG! What no one tells you is that after losing weight you WILL HAVE extra skin, you will have stretch marks and your body will not be perfect. You will not have the tight, perfectly toned body [even though you do have muscle somewhere under the loose skin]. At first I loathed my new body, ignoring the fact that even though my body was not perfect it was finally healthy. It has taken me 5 years to realize that my body is more than just something to look at. It is something amazing and my extra skin and stretch marks are reminders of the hard work I have put in to become healthy. So even though I may never look like society says I should it is okay because my body is mine, it is healthy and it is perfectly imperfect just like it should be. So I will wear my bikini, my midriff shirts and whatever else I please because this is my body and I am proud of how far it's come.
Regardless of all of my loose and extra skin, I am proud of my body because it is healthy and it is mine.
